Nur für Vanni

Ich bin echt so froh, dass du schwanger bist und ich wünsche dir alles Gute damit alles gut läuft!!! Hat mich stolz gemacht, dass du es von uns erst mir sagen wolltest!

Drück dich ganz dolle

hab dich ganz dolle lieb und das meint deine kleine/große Schwester ernst

Und ich verspreche, dass ich diesesmal da sein werde, 100%ig

I AM GOING TO .......

You know that, don't you?

Well, I help a little......

YES PARIS!!!

I TAUGHT A CLASS TODAY, BECAUSE PATRICK (THE TEACHER) WAS ILL.

LIKE ALWAYS, THERE HAS TO BE A SUPPLY TEACHER TO LOOK AFTER THE CLASS.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THE KIDS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO CHILL THEN, BUT THIS IS THE DEAL.

THE SUPPLY TEACHER ASKED, IF I COULD DO THAT FOR HIM, HE WOULDN'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO DO ALL THE OTHER THINGS WHEN HE HAS TO WATCH THIS CLASS..... YES, BEING A TEACHER IS HARD! :-D

FINE WITH ME, I GET SOME EXPERIENCE AND HE HAS TIME.

I THINK I DID A GOOD JOB, ALTHOUGH I HAD TO FIND EXERCISES FOR THEM IN THE SPACE OF FIVE MINUTES, BECAUSE I COULDN'T KNOW WHAT THEIR SUBJECT WAS AND BLABLABLA

WHEN YOU PLAY THE ROLE OF A STUDENT YOU CAN'T SEE HOW HARD IT IS TO BE A TEACHER, TEACHERS ARE IDIOTS YOU THINK, BUT THEY HAVE ONE OF THE HARDEST JOBS. WHEN YOU COULD SEE WITH WHAT MY TEACHER HAS TO DEAL, YOU WOULD SAY: NO, THANKS

DURING THE BREAK THE SUPPLY TEACHER CAME OVER AND ASKED IF I WOULD HAVE SOME TIME TO TALK.

HELLO? I AM HAPPY WHEN SOMEONE TALKS TO ME DURING THE BREAK OTHERWISE I AM ALWAYS SITTING AROUND AND DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

DO YOU REALLY WANNA KNOW WHAT HE ASKED?

TAKE A DEEP BREATH!!!!!

HE REALLY ASKED IF I LIKED TO GO WITH HIM, AN OTHER TEACHER AND TWO CLASSES TO PARIS FOR THREE DAYS.

JESUS, I WANT TO!!!!! IT IS THE 23RD - 25TH OF MAY AND I REALLY TRY TO GO WITH THEM, ALTHOUGH I ALREADY HAVE SEEN PARIS, BUT NOW I AM OLDER AND I DEFINITELY WILL ENJOY THE CITY OF LOVE :-)

BY THE WAY I HAVE TO TEACH THE ELEVEN YEAR OLDS FOUR TIMES A WEEK BY MYSELF, BECAUSE THEY WENT TO THEIR TEACHER AND ASKED FOR THAT BECAUSE THEY WOULD LIKE ME SO MUCH.

ISN'T THAT CUTE?! IT FEELS GOOD WHEN SOMEONE LIKES YOU, ESPECIALLY WHEN IT IS A WHOLE CLASS OF 32 KIDS
LOVE YOU ALL

Tough luck!

Everything started that I almost fell down the stairs in the morning, because I missed one stair.
It is normal when you are too tired, so I think it CAN happen.
Well, I got dressed. It is not really hard getting dressed isn't it? but when you notice after a while that you are wearing your underwear backwards, you should start thinking what's wrong with you! I have never done that in my entire life but today....
HELLO WAKE UP FOR GOD'S SAKE
While I put my eye makeup on my dad crashed into me and I lanced the mascara into my right eye. I spare all the little details, but in the end I only could see fuzzy.
No, when does it end....?????
I made mey cappuccino, maybe some caffeine would help to be in a better mood. Haha
Everyone enjoys some milk froth on their cappuccino so do I. I tried to reach the cappuccino creamer, and yes, it fell down right into my cappuccino and the pot fell down on the floor. You can't believe how angry I was!!!
I only had an other 5 minutes, I had to go to school! So I cleaned the floor and went out without anything in my belly.... Fine with me
Glad that nothing happened on my way to school I opened the door of my car on the parking lot. Yes I made it till here, wohoo
It was raining, so I came to the decision leave my bag (including keys, wallet and books for school) on the front passenger's seat to go out with my umbrella, lock the car door from inside, go around and then take my whole stuff from this side of the car.
The question is: What's wrong with Laras thought ?
ticktickticktickticktickticktíckticktickticktickticktick brrrrrrbrrrrrrbrrrrrrrrrrrbrrrrrrr
You are right! I already have locked my side of the door (inside) left the keys (bag) in my car but haven't opened the other door!
I haven't noticed this. I really tried to open the passenger door, looked on the seat and there it was: My bag with all my belongings plus my f*** keys!
I walked back home and it took me one hour. I was angry with myself and no one could pick me up, because my mums car is at the repair shop.
At least I had my umbrella with me!!!!!
Now I have to wait till my mums car is ready then I can take the other keys with me to get my car back home. Hopefully it will be ready today, when not I can walk to my car!
Damn 02/27/2007 I hate this year!!!!!!!!!

I meet Ira again after 8 months

I picked her up at 3pm and we acclaimed each other like silly ones.
I gave her my little present in this ugly pink wrapping paper (how embarrassing, but this was the last one I had from a kids birthday)
I brought her from America a sign with I AM THE QUEEN GET OVER IT
Now we both have the same one to hang it in front of our flats
I am sorry but this is only the truth: I am the queen :-)

We wanted to go to a café to sit there, so that I could show her my photos from the USA.

But before we went I had to return a fax for my dad. I put on a face, but of being a good daughter I did it.

The guy in this shop was too funny because he stuttered. This is something for me, because I love to laugh about people as long they can't notice it. Inside my body I was laughing so hard, but was smiling at him.

When I came back into the car Ira asked if I always do this.

Doing what?

She told me I flirted with him, but I didn't, I only felt sorry for this guy HAHAHAHA

I promise I was only friendly!

The café is an italian one, in a shopping center, with these typical small italian waiters with their southern charm.

"Ciao bella" hahaha is he saying this to Ira and me, we were not really interested in him

After a while a group of young people with a child sat down next to us.

This was nothing for Ira, because she hates it when little kids start screaming and my thought was: thank god that I needn't to babysit anymore

The youngest one of the adults out of this group looked over to us because we were so loud with our laughing, but it was too funny when we talked about our school time

I know that I have a loud voice but we both together.... you really don't wanna hear that, you will need earplugs!

I am glad that Ira is like me: loud, silly and can talk 24hours a day

At the end of the day she told me that she would be happy that I haven't changed a lot like a girl we both know and I think this is the most important thing that it's still the same when we are together: all hat and no cattle ;-D

Money, money, money

The first day tutoring four kids at the same time.
It thought it would be difficult but it is near the same as teaching one.
I never wanted to help in german but it is only for four weeks, because I have to replace a girl and after that I will see how it is going on.
I signed a contract and it's a fair one.
Now I only have to wait what kind of group I get after this one. I am optimistic that I can do longer and the most important thing is that I need this money.
The first day with the students made fun, they are all friendly and one of them has my old german teacher, which makes it easy to give tips.
And at school I got an other student who needs help, I have to talk to his mum on Wednesday evening, hopefully it works out. Wish me luck
4 weeks from now on, then my work experience at this school is over and I think I will miss the 11-12 year olds. They are so cute
Middle of April I am going back to my old school and this is going to be more difficult:
A lot of teachers who didn't, don't and won't like me!
The time after this whole work experience thing is going to be better: 4 months doing nothing and then I might study or not, who knows?!
Have a good one!!!

Being sad

Last night I called Sarah. :-( She told me that she can't afford to visit me!
I had this feeling before that this could happen, but I wasn't sure that it really happen.
I wish I could send her the money she needs, but I can't.
I had this great plan: travelling through Germany, but now it is gone.
She said that she wants to come next year, and hopefully she can come. It was
bad that I left her in the USA and that's the reason why I was happy to see my best friend again.
You will think I only want to suck up to Sarah, but I am not!! She is my best friend and very important person in my life.
I am afraid that our contact will break up and that we won't see each other again.
That sucks!
I can understand her, I couldn't afford to visit her in Sidney too, although my dad asked
me if he should buy a ticket for me. It is not only the ticket I would need extra money and ...
Furthermore my dad is doing enough for me and I know that my parents want to meet Sarah too. No way to pay this. When we wouldn't go for 5weeks on holiday then it might be fine, but in this situation, NO!
I am really upset, but I know that I will go to visit Sarah although it might be in 2020, but I am going to Sidneyl!!!
She shouldn't feel bad about this situation! I am happy that she is going to see her family earlier than planned, that is the most important thing that she is going back to the place where she belongs, because she will feel better than before!!!
She needs her granny and I appreciate this because her granny is so so cute.
Go back Sarah and take your time. I might be not in this country my whole life but I will be there for you in every situation and when it is only to chat, you know my number!
But not between 7pm-10pm german time you know why :-D

HELP ME

Two weeks ago, a friend came over and was talking with someone on his mobile. Great, why are you coming over when you have to do something else?
Anyway, he gave me the phone and I had to talk to this guy. Super-duper!
"Mhh I was in the USA, in Chicago..."
"Wow that sounds like fun.... I come over in a couple of days for a coffee..."
"That's a joke?"
"No, I want to get to know you!"
"Well...(????)"
My friend talked to him after this (with loudspeaker), "She is cute and.... I want to get to know her, can you arrange a date?"
hahaha who is asking me if I want this?! Women are not allowed to say their opinion or what
I was close to scream: NOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I haven't heard from him till Friday.
My friend was over again and called this guy. Oh great, time for me to leave this room or whole flat. "Wait, can you remember Lara? Hold on a sec"
"Fuck you!"
I talked to him an hour or more about useless stuff. I thought that would be alright by now and I would be done
He told my friend again that he.....
"No, I don't want to meet him. Tell him I want to become a nun and I have a weird opinion about men and sexuality!" My friend repeated what I said, but...
He called the homephone two days later (my friend is so nice and gave him the number grrr) and wanted to come over (1am)
"I am sleeping" He didn't believe it, but what would you say in my situation?
He promised my friend that I would fall in love with him very soon = I have to puke!
We will see who is stronger because I am female and a bitch :-D

ILL

MMMMMHHHH
I am sick and I hate it! Why is it always me, can't someone else get sick for me?
I am lying around, again, with a flu!
This is what I wanted, but at least I watch as much TV as I can juhu
I would be happy to be sick when I would work.
Sarah should I send you some viruses by mail :-D

PS: I always play: Bed goes up, bed goes down :-D

I am the teacher

I am going to school now for two weeks and I am not really sure if it's the best job I can study!
These little shits are pissing me off especially the older ones!
Today I taught the first time 11/12 year olds and they were so cute. I love them when they yell after me when I leave school only to say goodbye. But the older students I could kill.
The other day one of them, of course he is so cool, yelled after me BITCH.
I was close to smack him into his ugly face, BUT I am in the position of a trainee. I like to be bad! I looked at him, smiled and went home. Not with me asshole! I called the principal and now this little shit has to stay longer in school to clean. I love my black soul!
I don't know why I had this idiotic idea to become a teacher, maybe I can't leave school or it is the money plus the amount of hoildays :-)
I wish I could study psychology, but .... it is the same to become a teacher I will end up drinking alcohol because I will be done with these brats!
Only 48 days left, two weeks off and then I will go back to my old school to see the difference.
Sarah, think about doing this job, it'll kill ya!

Work experience

From tomorrow on I will go back to school to get some work experience.
Hopefully to become a teacher is really my thing

LAZY AND BORING DAYS

Since I am back I am hanging around, doing nothing. Plus I have a really bad jet lag.
I can remember the day when I called Sarah (german time 5am) because I couldn't sleep. I tried to sleep, but I couldn't.
Everyone who knows me, asked what I had done. I took drugs! Haha and I was so cranky, bitchy and unhappy with my whole life. No sleep pulls you down!
My poor mum and dad, I am sorry by the way, but you didn't understand me :-(
I was happy when I talked to Sarah, because she knows how it feels when you are really cranky because of no sleep, I know how Sarah is!!!
I wasn't sure if I did the right thing, leaving Chicago. Maybe I only ran away from my situation and my life, but who cares.
I am back and I noticed that I could never be a jobless person. Never in my entire life. You are living for nothing.
My sister was annoying me, because she asked all the time what I think about my future and bladibla. She was pissing me off! Hey let me live my own life, I know what to do, because until now I did everything on my own. But she didn't stop, thank god that someone else talked to her
I tried my best to get a job, but they don't have any left and I am not disposed to drive far away for the money I would get!
I will see what will happen, I have time now!

Goodbye USA

Don't write on your homepage that you can take 2 suitcases á 32kg when your employees don't know anything of it!!!
O'Hare, 11.30
To get a parking spot at airports might be difficult, but isn't it there damned job that they have trolley carts. NO! Chicago doesn't think it could be necessary and more easier for tourists. Three suitcases a medium-sized adidas back filled with presents for home, a side pocket plus a bag with presents from friends and Sarah and Lara. We were load like camels! It took us ages to get to my terminal with all these things.
At the terminal I payed the money for the third suitcase and after weighing she said I had to pay again because it wouldn't be allowed to take more than 32kg. Luckily Sarah was there, because I stood there with my mouth wide open. Not this amount again, please not!
The lady accepted our story about the internet, because we said the truth! All cunts there.
No time for a big farewell, because I was late. Two crying girls at the airport with the hope that they will see each other as soon as possible.
The gate was like always in the hindmost corner at the flight was bad! I hate United, their pilotes win their license by playing skat or whatever. Bad landings guys really bad!
When my airplane would turn into a jumping rabbit when I try to get back on the ground I would think about my abilities!
YES! Fortunately I changed airplanes and companies, theres nothing like Lufthansa.
But to get to this gate I had to ask some policeman who didn't know the right way, but I found one person who could help me. "You have to go out of this building, catch a bus but I can't tell you exactly which one, and then you will arrive there where you want to go" "Oh, thanks a lot (you asshole why are you working here when you don't know anything, he?)
I was angry but was still friendly to all the people I asked, none but fools.
I trust myself and I found it! Yeah, this is what I wanted to do in my whole life: Driving over the highway to the next terminal. Why can't they built it easier that everything is connected.
The next thing was: Security. Second time that I had to take my shoes, coat off and on. The security moved my bag forward and backwards and this a couple of times. Fuck you, find something, whatever you do I don't care anymore!
Nice as some Americans can be they apologised. Cute :-)
I got excited when I saw my airplane rolling to the gate.
I love flying, nothing is better than this.



Before the boarding started, this stupid lady said that all foreigners, except Canada, had to go to the computer to take a photo and to get a dactylogram on a piece of paper. Screw you, I did it before with my Visa, but they wanted to get sure that I am not criminal. Wohoho I am a typical gangster from Germany!!
Glad to sit at the window and to relax I enjoyed a 6 and a half hour flight included half hour turbolenzes over greenland. The flight attendants were very friendly, but I had no sleep, because this bloody lady next to me moved from left to right and from right to left the whole time.
The Arrival was scheduled at 8.58am. Hey, although we were late because of boarding, which took us 1hour we were too early and that sucks. Another 40min flying in circles because we didn't get the clearance to land, I felt like in a roller coaster :-)
I got all my suitcases, no one got lost, but one was checked by security. I couldn't deal with this anymore and so I missed three or more times that one of my suitcase passed me. Leave me all alone, this is what I thought.
People starred at me, when they saw me coming out because I couldn't look over this hill of suitcases!
Happy to see my parents again, we opened a bottle of champagne at the parking garage and I had a bad jet lag which I never have had before in my entire life

-THE END-

LAST SUNDAY IN THE USA

Sarah and I went to Wallgreens to print some photos of the hostfamily and me. I wanted to create a picture frame for them.
For lunch my hostfamily invited us (Sarah, Judith and me) to a restaurant to say goodbye.
Judith had a good conversation with the new AuPair and I was together with Sarah, like always :-)
In the evening I wanted to go back to say goodbye without anyone around me and to give them the picture frame. More private.
It doesn't make any sense to talk about this farewell. It wasn't sad but rather mean!!!
No tear in the house but many in the car, because I have never been treated that way in my entire life!!!
As a smoker needs his cigarette I needed my coffee!
Judith and Sarah tried their best to make me happy again and they were right, why should I be sad the last day instead of being happy that I would go home the other day?

Aren't we cute at Starbucks??!!



We were there along time and some people were looking at us strange girls :-)

MMMMMMHHHHHH YUMMY THE CHEESECAKE FACTORY
This was our next stop to see Kelly and Nadine, two other friends of us
We had a great dinner and I used my trick to get a drink again, although it seemed close that they wouldn't believe me. After some seconds Judith and Nadine could breath again, they were more anxious than me :-)
Judith seemed that she enjoyed her sip from my drink, gell?
I don't know for who the cook from the Cheesecake Factory cooks, because it's too much but so so so good and you can eat the next two days from it. I am sure you all would love it!
At the end we all ordered the famous Cheesecake. Very difficult when you can choose from 25 or more types of Cheesecake :-)

Sweet Dreams for the sweetest five girls in America


KELLY The Tiramisu cheesecake



NADINE The Original One No. 1



JUDITH The Original One No. 2



SARAH the Strawberry Cheesecake



I the Key Lime Cheesecake



A big kiss for sweet Sarah
I already miss you and hope that we will stay in contact forever!!
Hopefully you really can come to visit me in May!
I will never forget the fun I had with you, it was a great time!!!!

BUT I AM HAPPY TO GO HOME AFTER ALL THIS SHIT!!!

LAST SATURDAY WITH MY FRIENDS

Sarah and me thought that our last two days in the USA together should be very special. We decided that we would do a sightseeing tour through Chicago, all the places we haven't seen before. To many things for one day, but we had other plans for Sunday.
We planned to go Downtown very early. In the morning I packed my suitcases and Sarah picked me up with all my stuff, yes its true Sarah :-) , around 10am. I didn't want to stay at my hostfamilies house when the next AuPair would arrive. Why should I?
In the end we left Arlinghton Heights, Sarah's place, at 2pm so that we arrived Downtown at 3pm. Well, it was still fine because we had a great lunch at PANERA, one of our favourite restaurants near us. We love it!

Sarah enjoys her yummy lunch

After that we got our coffee and took some photos in Arlinghton. After that we left to go Downtown.

Look at me!!!!

The Sears Tower was the first thing on our list. How you can see on my photo Chicago is a wonderful city. On the right (photo) you can see the John Hanckock Building



It was wonderful and it made fun, but we left it quickly because we wouldn't have had enough time for all the other important things. We caught a taxi to the Aquarium, because childish Lara wanted to see a shark in reality.
This bloody taxi driver took a longer way, but at least I was able to take a good pic of Buckingham Fountain.



You don't know it? That you have to watch Married ... With Children
No way into the Aquarium, because of the price! NOOOOO because we paid so much for the taxi, what an asshole, that we decided not to go into it :-(
Bloody money, why can't we change things. I would have given them my bra Sarah her underway and we would have got our tickets, everything would be fine, but ...
"Hey, let's go to the Field Museum"
Great, because they would have a T-Rex which I missed in New York.
We walked up the steps and a nice man told us that the muesum closed five minutes ago. Shit! That was the time to get cranky. I took a photo of it anyway to say that I saw it at least from the outside.
2007 seems not better than 2006



Yepp, we gave up and went shopping! All the museums were closed and we were annoyed from our bad luck.
Sarah, do me a favor and visit all these places I haven't been to in Chicago and take a lot of photos!


Bad luck but always smiling and happy Sarah and Lara

I AM GOING HOME!!!

I am leaving 8th of January and will be back in Germany the 9th
See you all soon

NEW YORK CITY

28th of December I left Chicago to celebrate the New Year on Time Square!
I was so exited to see the ball drop, because everyone told me it would be fantastic and the whole USA would watch it on TV. Well,...
My plane took off at 4pm and to be honest I was nervous. To fly with a company you don't now is not very easy for me, but I did it before so ....
I had to change planes in Detroit and waited hours for the next one to get to NY. I think it was around 9.30pm when I arrived in Newark, BUT my trip wasn't over yet. To get to my friend I had to catch some trains and I was so annoyed because it took me ages to arrive. Especially this big suitcase made everything more difficult. I think everyone who knows me can imagine how many cloths I had with me for 3 days :-)
Anyway, in the end I arrived at 2 o'clock at the trainstation where I was supposed to be, but we had another 20 minutes drive to her place. I was done after all this shit!!!
The other day I slept in and I went Downtown, for god's sake, I had to pay 20$ for a ticket to get there. Chicago is so so cheap!

What are you doing when you are in New York City by yourself without a sightseeing book or a map? I was glad that I foound the Empire State Building. I paid a package so I could watch a movie about NY (history and stuff like that). It is wonderful to see NY from the top, but it is not great when you are on your own. There's no one to share all these impressive things! I took some photos and left the building. I asked some people on the street which way I have to go to the Rockefeller Center and I can be happy that Americans are friendly. On my way I passed this huge church. In front of it they played techno music (church style) and to the rythm of the music they lit up snowflakes falling down the wall of the church. Understandable??
I left this place and went to the Rockefeller Center to see the big Christmas tree in front of it. Hopefully you can see how huge it was. This place was so filled that I left quickly to go to the Broadway (Time Square) and went shopping because it was already 6pm and the Guggenheim was closed plus the Museum of History. Especially the Museum of History I wanted to see because they made Night At The Museum in it! Great everything was working out for me very well! Whatever...
I had to do what a woman has to do: Shopping!
I left NY at 9pm and wasn't in a good mood. It is not very great when you are visiting a friend and she has no time for you.
My next day wasn't better at all. I wanted to see the Statue of Liberty, what means as close as possible! We stood in the line for the tickets about 2hours, I think, the ticket sellers end up in telling us that there wouldn't be any tickets left! Hello?! We stood there in this fucking freezing air and for what?!
This was the type of Statue I got to see

Let's go to ground zero! It was sad, although I haven't seen the Twin Towers live before but your mind shows you all these pics you have seen on TV when they broke down. It was difficult to take a photo because they built up walls that you can't look threw it, but I got one!
That was my second day and I haven't seen the half of what I normally wanted to see! There is only one day left: 31th of December. I was sure that we wouldn't go Downtown again to go sightseeing, because we would spend ages to get ready for the big party.
I coloured my hair and it turned out orange. This was the last thing I needed in 2006! Orange hair. Everyone would like it especially I loved it. I tried to do my best to get rid of this orange, washing and washing and washing. It was still in there, so I had to deal with it. The party was fun.
Yes, I went into the club with 20. You know what I did to get in, NO,
it doesn't have anything to do with guys :-)
We left the party at 3am and got something to eat. Yes, not everything is closed by this time. It's The American Dream!
My friend brought me to the trainstation at 4am and I sat there by myself till 5.15am to catch the train to the airport, by the way, my plane was scaduled at 11.30am. You are all able to calculate how many hours I was at this bloody airport. It is for sure not comfy to sleep on these seats at the aiport.
Going back to Chicago to see Sarah again was my biggest wish at this moment, but I had to change planes in Minniapolis. Around 4pm I sat next to Sarah in the car and was crancky about my trip, which costed me more than 400$ and this for bloody 2 days in New York City!
So who is going with me to New York City again?!